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Honestly, I just need more weed in my life. I really do. 

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I know you’re just trying to help and make me feel better and I have got a lot of these kinds of messages. I do appreciate all the love and everyone going out of there way to try and make me feel better. Life isn’t always fair and of course not everyone is going to always be happy. I’m going through some difficult shit right now and it happens. I think at one point of another sadness helps you grow and learn about yourself. It makes you appreciate the happy times a little bit more and makes you stronger as a person when you over come it. As much as I’d love to be happy right now. I can’t be. Happiness is not a mental state of mind. My attitude is still in the right place. I know I’ll get through this and be happy again but right now I just need to let myself be sad and upset so I can get through what I’m going through and heal and learn from it. If I didn’t allow myself to be sad over this I’d be blocking out and burying my feelings. I’m learning how to deal with all this stuff and I don’t want to block out my emotions and have them build up until I just can’t take it anymore. 

I really do appreciate everyone trying to cheer me up and a lot of you have made me smile. However stop telling me to just be happy because if it were that simple, I would. People need to feel hurt and upset and angry and every type of emotion sometimes. It’s all experience and a part of life. It’s something I myself need to figure out on my own, and I will. Thank you.  

(via darklove69)

The stuff about my family doesn’t even bug me anymore. Well it does but fuck it. I’ve learned to deal. I used to it. I’m used to being on my own. I’m used to having no one. I learned long ago that I’m the only person I can ever 100% count on. I was okay with that. But then you came along, and I need you. I’m not alone because I have you. The thing that scares me and bugs me is I’m just waiting for you to see what a huge fuck up I am and leave. Just like my family. That’s what breaks my heart and makes me cry. You’re the only reason I’m holding myself together. I’m so tempted to just go back to my old ways. 

(via curvecreation)

Lots of reasons. Thank you. <3 

Except I’m really not. I have a lot of awful sides to me. 

i don’t need a father. i don’t. not one who won’t accept me.

(via emmaisalesbian)

Sorry, I don’t usually eat at restaurants. Every once in while when I do, I usually won’t eat healthy because it’s like my cheat meal and a treat. I guess I would ask the waiter what the healthiest choices on the menu are. 

I’m just really sad. 

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